Bad Luck
I feel like luck and other wordly beings are just not on my side. After all my relevatory ramblings yesterday, you'd think at least the little stuff in my life would go right. However, that is not the case. I feel like crap at the moment because i've been waiting for this one thing this whole entire week and was really excited about it. However, as luck would have it, i left my cell phone in the car, didn't realize that i had, and missed this thing i had been waiting for because of my carelessness. So many if only's. If only we had left at 11pm instead of 10:20 i would have been able to catch that call or would have at least came home in time. If only i had walked downstairs to get a drink of water, or wanted something from the car around then. Sigh...why does everything turn out wrong for me. Is this some sort of sign or is it just my growing irresponsibility because of this uneventful summer? I feel like i have no motivation, no driven purpose right now and it's definitely doing something bad to me. Hopefully, i make up all the lost ground. Feeling like a complete loser doesn't suit my shaky emotions well.