nothing

yeah, so forget about my last semi-happy entry. I am now, in a melancholy mood again. Nothing new...my mood is just bound to be lowered sometime during the week. It just happens, and i wish it didn't but it's kind of out of my hands...well not completely, but somewhat. I don't know if having a definite emotion is better than having none at all. I'm not happy, i'm not sad, i'm not angry, i'm not anything... The best part is that i have no idea what to do about it. I've had enough of waiting and wishing with empty hopes. I realized that my optimism for somethings is worthless...w/e.