i don't know

Life's kind of sucking...for some reason it seems like i'm doing everything wrong. I'm not too thrilled with people changing and feel like some people i thought would want to keep in touch with me don't bother. Maybe i'm wrong, maybe they have other reasons for never saying hey how it's going once in a while...w/e. On a somewhat different note, i think i'm afraid of failure...too afraid for my own good that it's causing me to fail. Yeah, i know, it's a bit contrived but that's how i feel. I need to go somewhere away from here cuz obviosuly what's here isn't working for me. I don't know...i guess i'll keep thinking for now.